Perak

“If you didn't turn on me then, when you had plenty of reason to, I trust that you won't do it now, ring or no ring. I married you, Karissa, because I love you. Nothing more, nothing less." - Ignazo Vitale , Target on Our Backs

Hi . How are you guys ? I'm fine for now . whew , look at the date . 15 of March already . That's mean tomorrow is my first day as a student in UTP . Okay , I'm lying if I say I'm not freaking out . I basically freaking out about everything . Like everything ! I don't know , Am I fully ready yet ? I tried to read more blog post from other UTP's students , and yea , I even more nervous than before .  How can I survive this ? By the way , I' writing this at my Grandparents' house . Internet here are pretty crazy but I manage to watch Supernatural , so I think the internet is not so bad . Oh my , I can't watch supernatural much later . I just , I don't know .I'm scare and nervous . So nervous . Ya Allah , I hope I will get a great roommate tomorrow . I'm kinda afraid that I will forget to study since I will be far from my loving parents . oh whew , now , my nervous level are getting here . I need to seriously calm down . omg . There will be no TV and my books anymore . omg . Why I left them . omg . I'm sad . I think that's all . This is the last post for me as a free person . I'm gonna have a new life later . University life . Bye fairies .

Pillowtalk

" Never let them see your fear… it's rule number one. And it's not that I'm afraid. No, I'm not. " - Ignazo Vitale , Target on Our Backs

Hi . Wow , March already . Sorry for keeping you guys in the dark . I don't have much time to write lately because of Supernatural and my laziness , plus , my old laptop is currently being such a jerk and keep on lagging . I'm so sorry . But hey , how are you guys ? I'm still the old me , nothing change and I'm fine . Oh , I got the offer from UTP . Cool right ? I have decided to accept it and I'm going there this 16 of march . Whew , things are going to get tough , right ? Well , I'm not sure if I'm ready enough but life must go on . And yes , I won't give up . I'll try and try . " If they can make it , why can't I ? " " If they can succeed , Why can't I ? " . New life are going to start soon . And I'm not lying , I feel so scare and nervous . Maybe , I can't pay much attention to this blog anymore . But hey , I'll try to squeeze some time . I want to ace this course that I take . I want to be the best and I don't want to be lazy anymore . This foundation will exhaust me but I'll try my hardest and make every single minutes count . Just hope and pray this spirit gonna last long ( hahahaha ) . About my Supernatural , I'm now proceed to season 5 ! yyyyaaaayyyyyyy . I'm gonna keep watching it . oh dean . oh sam . oh cas . Yes , I love them . Whew , I don't have any idea to write anymore . Oh about my SPM result , let just say I got what I want , alhamdulillah . Well , this is the end line for today , I think . I'll try to update more before this upcoming Wednesday . Have a nice day then . Bye fairies .

Littlest thing

“I can’t imagine loving her any more than I do right now. But I know I will. Because every second I’m with her, I fall harder.” - Where I belong 

Hi fairies . It is 20 of February and almost the end of this month . My favourite month are going to the end . Wow , such a amazing and weird month for me . I just realise that I shared birthday month with a lot of famous people . Well , not that it matter . Hey , sorry for not updating regularly . I just don't get the right mood to write ( hahahaha ) . Oh , did you know , I just make a new tumblr . Oh my god , it is so beautiful and full of Dean and Zeki . And you can't judge me ( hahahaha ) . It is a tough job to edit those tumblr page. Thanks to this theme blog who help me . At least my tumblr page looks pretty . And nah , I won't give the link here . Let just say I don't want to share my page with everyone yet . So , what have you guys been doing lately ? Me , I'm still with supernatural and I'm done with season 2 ! Let's parttttyyyyyyyyyy . Oh my , I cried hard when I know Sam dead and Dean sell his soul to that crossroad demon . I can't do this . I know he will be alive until season 11 but still , it is so heart breaking . And because of it , I don't sleep  wink to watch that episode . wae wae wae . But hey , I proceed to episode 1 season 3 . I just can say the demon are getting pretty radical and crazy and it is getting exciting . yyaaayyyyy . And did you realise that I just put a mp3 player on my sidebar right ? Well , you have to click it . And it is my currently favourite song . It is a pretty song , try to listen to it . Well , I don't know what to write anymore so I think this is the end ? See you on march . Bye .

Happy Birthday , Yuki

“We waste too much time looking for the next thing and not appreciating what we have right now… and right now, what we have, is endless opportunities.” - Naz , Monster in His Eyes

Hi . It is 12 of February . My birthday . Happy Birthday , Fatin . I hope you will success in your life and be happy always . Don't let the light and fire in you fade away . Stop  turning yourself down occasionally  , you are not Jace and your life is beautiful in every way you see. Remember my dear self , the little girl in you still hope to be beautiful and success . She always pray for you when she is little and please don't let her down . She is still smiling and cheering for you . And again , happy 18 years old . You are getting older but more gorgeous each day . Happy birthday warlock and may you be taller , beautiful , gorgeous and every other good things ! May Allah bless you . And never stop pouring your love to everyone . Love Dean and N like you always do . 

And , special thank you to all my friends who wished me prosperity and good life ahead me . I love you guys so much . Thank you for every effort and gifts you gave to me to make my day today lovely and happy . Thankyouu to my family and Faidhi for singing me birthday song , Thankyouu Alida for calling me sharp at 12 am to wish birthday and share your beautiful stories to make my day , Thankyou to my reading club and supernatural fandom for such a thoughtful messages , videos and dancing gifts , Thankyouu to 5int1 for wishig me good life , Thankyouu to my friends for wishing me to be a better person , Thankyou to my unnie and oppas for cheering me and gave me alot of Dean ( OMG ) and N ( YES YES ) gifs that crack me up and thankyou to my manga friends for giving me the link to Vampire knight newest extra chapter ( maybe I will write something about this later )  . Thankyouu and thanks a lot / throws kisses / . I think thats all for today . I have Zero waiting for me . Bye fairies . I love you guys a lot.

Yuki and Yori

" She is so beautiful . When she smile and happy , she is even brighter than the Sun . She is here with me when the life itself want to kill me and she is here to cheer me when I'm nervous or sad . Her happiness is the source of my happiness . Thankyou for always being with me through the dark and light | happy and sad | nervous and carefree | hungry and full . Also , thank you for sticking around when I shut down all people and push them away . You stayed and make my life even better than before . You always keep up with my mood and childishness and never makes me feel left out . You are one of my greatest gift and I thank Allah because He make our path collide . I hope your light never fade but burn even brighter . Dear bestfriend , I love you " - Fatin | yuki | me 

Hi . Well , it is an early post for me . I want to post something tomorrow since it is my birthday . Yes , tomorrow or in 1 hour I will be 18 ! Hahahaha , not that it change anything . I will still watch Dean and love N . But I'm legal to party ( hahahaha ) , or that what Rayyan said before . Today is actually pretty special to me . I called it my own party . Today I went out with my bestie . Oh my god , I miss her so dearly . I can say I almost teared up when I saw her this morning . It is a long time since we spend our time together . Well , at first we plan to eat at Domino's pizza first but it is a little too early ( hahahaha ) , so instead we went to bookstores and  search for the book I want . Well , yea I got the book , typical me . Then we proceed to the pizza place . We choose a decent pizza combo and she choose the flavor . Okay , that was a big mistake . I won't let her choose pizza again ( hahahaha) , not that bad but taste exotic and I think it is funny . After the pizza part , we walk aimlessly  . Going to Watson , go and walk around Tunas Manja building and stop to have a drink and cookies at the cafe . Then we go to the Thai Carnival and to the park  , playing the swing and remembering our memories .  Actually , why did I feel like writing and essay for my English test here (hahahaha) ? Well , to sum up , today is the happiest day for me . We eat until we are totally full , like seriously so full ( and she still can eat more hahahaha ) and keep on talking and basically insult each other like always . Oh my god, I seriously can't describe how perfect today is . I keep replaying it in my mind and I freaking love it . I can't ask any better than this . Thank you for making me smiling and happy the whole day , Lida . I love youuuuuu and let us meet again later and eat more (hahahahaha) . I think that is all . Happy almost birthday to me . Bye fairies .